2015

Almost 1 week in and I'm still doing well! Our New Years road trip was so fun! I was able to catch up with my oldest and best friend and meet her adorable new baby. As I had expected being on the road and celebrating proved to be challenging but thanks to WWPP weekly points, I'm still on track. Thank goodness for those weekly points cause I would have definitely blown my daily points goal without them. New Year's Eve was the most difficult to eat low points and a significant portion of my weekly points were spent that night. I could feel the pull to keep eating the snacks and cookies that were at arm's reach. I promised myself that I would diligently track my food so I tried to check my points before choosing to nibble, but a couple times I snacked before I tracked and it almost felt like I was losing control. I was afraid I would just keep eating and not even remember what I had eaten. It's the closest I have felt to losing track of my goals this week. Being on the other side now, I feel really good that I kept tracking and was able to enjoy eating without fully losing control.

Tomorrow is not only the last day of my first week of my working towards my goals, it's also the first day of winter term in my second year at veterinary school. Oh vet school. It's amazing to have the opportunity to gain the education necessary to have the job that I feel is my calling, but it's truly the largest source of stress for me. And I believe that stress is my major trigger for emotional, compulsive eating. And thus, my most recent fifteen pound gain has been since I started vet school last year. But I can't continue like this so I am determined to find other ways of coping with the stress. After all, I doubt the stress I'm feeling will really end with school and I really want to make lifelong changes.

Today, I had a bit of motivation in the form of dress shopping. I have a formal event next weekend and disappointingly none of the dresses I own currently fit. Thankfully, I successfully found a dress that fits though it's not the most flattering cut or the most exciting dress. Of course there were other, cuter dresses in smaller sizes. I'm trying to not let this discourage me as it has in the past. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm taking action and even letting myself imagine that maybe by this time next year, I can be buying one of those cuter, smaller dresses for next year's formal.